filed a complaint with board of medicine

I believe whole-heartedly in due process, but I want to note that about a week ago, with a heavy heart, I filed a complaint to the medical board in my state against my physician, who I'll call "Dr. Whatever."

In short, I went in to see Dr. Whatever, and I assessed that something was seriously amiss with them - it left me concerned for public safety. So after some consideration, I filed a complaint. I kept it objective. An investigator from the board called today to gather further information. The phone call lasted 9 minutes, and they wanted an account of exactly how the encounter went.

I was nervous talking to the board, because I was raised not to rat on people, to stay out of things, to trust that our Maker would ultimately judge as He saw fit. I was taught to fear retaliation. But then I became a nurse and all that went out the window.

The investigator gave me her contact info, told me when the investigation was concluded that I would receive a letter in the mail advising me of the outcome. I already have a feeling I know how this is going to go.

I have a lot of ambivalence and it annoys me. I know I did the right thing, yet I feel like I've somehow betrayed Dr Whatever. Especially if it turns out that my concerns were unfounded. I have to trust what I saw and heard, but you cant help but second-guess yourself. You know that unsettled feeling you get when you're arguing with someone who's important to you? That's how I feel. I feel embattled, like I'm waiting for something bad to happen to me (not that I think anyone is going to do anything bad to me - it's just a feeling).